//: Reflection on Psalm 3

Sitting here eating rice cakes and mutually staring at my dog, I tried to think about life. This happened the other day, while I had some spare moments for reflection. Today, I'm in the same spot, yet a few things are different. I've eaten more food, and I've gone some more places. What is the same? The conditions of my soul, the thoughts dwelling in my soul are the same.

This morning, after a beautiful morning at church, where I had enough time to take a good shower and go early (mainly motivated by the fact that I had to because I was on the worship team), I am sitting here now briefly and just reading Psalm 3. The fact that our souls can think thoughts is proof enough right now to me that there is a God. The beauty of people and the intricacies of their designs also gives me no speculation. There are other things in life, though, that can give us reasons to doubt. What are those? Can we identify them and bring them into the light?

For me, when times are hard, I have had moments of wanting to give up on the belief of God, or go to worldly ways and reasons of being happy. The Baptist- Christian life- devotional kind-pure lifestyle is not the only one out there, and there is a distinct choice to choose to live in a belief in God and to live missing out on many different things. But I glorify and thank God in this moment, because he has brought me through and over my doubts and given me ways and reasons to believe in him firmly and live for Him as my highest life purpose.

Bringing it all together, the Word sustains and brings clarity to it all.

Psalm 3

A psalm of David. When he fled from his son Absalom.

1 Lord, how many are my foes!
How many rise up against me!
2 Many are saying of me,
“God will not deliver him.”

3 But you, Lord, are a shield around me,
my glory, the One who lifts my head high.
4 I call out to the Lord,
and he answers me from his holy mountain.

5 I lie down and sleep;
I wake again, because the Lord sustains me.
6 I will not fear though tens of thousands
assail me on every side.

7 Arise, Lord!
Deliver me, my God!
Strike all my enemies on the jaw;
break the teeth of the wicked.

8 From the Lord comes deliverance.

    May your blessing be on your people.

Thanks to Biblegateway.com for the passage!

I feel similar to David in this passage. Many are my foes! Whether I imagine them or not, there are also stark dark foes right in front of me! I have to face them without support from friends, without adequate support from my family, and with friends I would desire to be the friends I wish I could be running with this season. BUT God. But God, he is always there for me. He is here to sustain, to refresh, to show me the way my footsteps should go. He has never failed me yet, as the song goes. What a beautiful and true reminder.

I learned at BSF this year (Bible Study Fellowship, the Bible study of this year being on Revelation) that the word TRUE which describes Jesus's nature in the beginning chapters of Revelation, means that he is true in the deepest sense of the Word, that he is REAL, that he actually is real and he actually exists, and that his truth is not just a surfacey fake truth but he is true to the depths of who he actually is. God is TRUTH. Jesus is TRUTH. Allah is a fake god, and Jesus is THE ONLY TRUE GOD. Some people claim that the God of Islam is the same God of Christianity. But that is not true! If they are the same God, then why do they say to opposing things? Islam says boldly and loudly that Jesus is not God! Jesus in the Bible says Himself that he is God. If they were the same God "he" would not be saying two things that oppose each other.

Back to Psalm 3, I could easily look to others and find no hope in my future simply based on their lack of interest in my existence, the fact that they don't say hi to me, or that they don't seem to encourage me and come up and say "you were called to this, you were made for that." Instead I look to God! In Him, I then find my meaning and purpose. I find security when around me is evil, when a person rises up against me when I stand for truth. When I am rejected by "friends," I can find true meaning in my relationship with God and maybe it is a wake up call to me to pursue my purpose and not waste my time on a friendship that is idle and not fulfilling and not God-honoring. I may not see that from the outset, but looking back I can think, "oh, maybe God was protecting me from something that wasn't worthwhile anyway."

"I lie down and sleep." Oh, there is rest in God. I can sleep. I don't have to spend my life worrying. I have many cares and I can give them to God. He lifts my head high! He lifts the heads of believers who believe in this verse high!

Others may say, "there is no hope for Ashley" "there is no way she can do this or that because she does not have a college degree or a college degree yet" or "there's no way she can be delivered into this or that (do this or that accomplishment)." But God's Word screams to my heart (gently! It's a good scream I mean metaphorically), "I will deliver you, Ashley!" God says this to me, and by reading his word and finding this truth out, I now choose to believe it.

Even if my foes were multiplied by ten thousand, God would still protect me, as it says in this passage. I would not perish before my life purpose from God is accomplished, and if I die, I know that is God's timing and that I have fulfilled what he has created me to be and do on earth. Then heaven awaits me! What joy! What utter joy will be there! I hope to inspire many people to come along, because that is a HUGE, almost complete part of my purpose in being here on earth. I will let you read it again here.